14 December 2010

Only 2 months left

Could it really be that I only have 2 months left before this new Baby B is here? Yea, that went really fast. It has been a great pregnancy, despite the nausea. But now I'm left with all these mixed emotions, to go right along with my mixed hormones. Part of me is absolutely thrilled. I can not wait to meet this little boy that is dancing around on my bladder and I think has recently taken up Tae kwon do. Part of me is terrified of the lack of sleep and pure PAIN that I know is awaiting me very shortly. It wasn't that long ago to "forget" what is going to happen. Another part is so excited for Rhys to have a little buddy. He really loves being around other kids. And the last little bit of me is so saddened that I wont be able to give all my attention to my sweet little boy. He has become my little buddy. I know him. And I know everything about him. I am so sad at the idea of possibly missing out on his little spirit growing because I'll be "distracted." I hope this isn't the case, and things will not change between us nearly as much as I am dreading. The whole idea of having two really hasn't quite sunk in yet.

So pretty much I am trying to spend all my time soaking up life with Rhys. Yes I am behind on laundry, and my house is under par when it comes to cleanliness. But why not? I only have so much energy and ability to bend that it doesn't matter. I will pick up and "nuggle" my boy any time he wants (which has been often. I'm sure my belly makes a nice cushy resting spot). For me, I need this time to be with just him. It is, after all, limited.

Is this normal? Any one have some great secret as to how I'm supposed to do this? But really, how do you even shower with 2 little munchkins??

3 comments:

The Thomas Kidlets said...

i had the same feelings before logan was born. madi was only 16 months...and i didn't feel ready to not be focussing only on her. BUT, things have really been great. stick to your normal daily stuff as much as you can. he will count on it, and it will make you feel normal with all of the chaos.

you will do great! you might not shower at first :) but after a little while, you'll figure it out. plus, when the new baby is sleeping, you're gonna just want to play with rhys...so, things like showering, eating, or even brushing your teeth become way overrated when compared to hanging out with your 1st baby! we are 3 1/2 months into being a family of 4 and it's getting easier each day.

for me, the stress of having another baby was way less. i knew what to expect more or less, so it wasn't as 'freaky...'

good luck! it will be great! can't wait to see the new little guy!

Megan and Greg said...

I remember when my sister had her second, she was saying how she was panicking about all the same things and that when her baby came she was just amazed at how full of love her life had become. And recently as I was panicking about my first, she reminded me that it "all works out. Just love them to pieces and everything else falls into place." And I believe her. Congrats! I had no idea you were so far along!

Stephanie said...

It's amazing how you have the second one and instantly have MORE love to give to both of them. You will do great! One trick that I learned was to spend time with the first by reading a book together while I fed the baby. The first could hold the book and help turn the pages. This made feeding the baby BOTH of their time with me, not just the baby's. As for showering, I remember putting Bren in his bouncy chair in the bathroom with me (safe) and then putting Caleb in his room to read books or (embarrassingly) in front of a PBS show for a few minutes so that I knew he wasn't getting into trouble for just a few. And my showers were quick. ;) It will all come together. We look forward to hearing the big news!